I don't know what to write here. I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know what direction I'm going in certain aspects of my life. I don't like hurting people. I don't know why things work out the way they do. I don't like not knowing this stuff. I don't like how I've burnt bridges. I don't like how I'll burn more bridges to most likely try and make myself feel better. I don't always like how I normally look out for number one.

What happened?

What a rough day. Had my butt handed to me three times at curling, which effectively meant that we weren't winning our way to provincials. We shouldn't have lost any of our games but people messed up and I just couldn't always pull off the miracle shots a skip has to pull off to save the team from slaughter. To top off the roughness in Rossburn I bashed my head on the door of my car and now I have a huge bump with a scar type deal on the top of my head. Then there's the matter of my love life. I wish I knew what to do about that. Oh well I'm just gonna go out tomorrow night, have some fun, and clear my mind.

It's shuffleboard and no. You gotta think like snooker, poker, and free-rock climbing. This is dangerous shit.

It's forty-two pounds of polished granite, bevelled on the belly and a handle a human being can hold. And it may have no practical purpose in itself but it is a repository of human possibility and if it's handled just right, it will exact the kind of poetry...

Well I stole that little quote from my favourite sports movie of all time (Men With Brooms). Hopefully tomorrow my rink and I can exact some of that "poetry" with those 42 pounds of polished granite at zones in Rossburn. Our first match up is against Hamiota at 1 followed by games with Rossburn and Strathclair at 3 and 5 respectively.

So today at school was actually pretty cool. Second semester English is actually pretty sweet so far. We learned about this famous Welsh poet named Dylan Thomas. Quite the guy this Dylan Thomas was. He was an alcoholic, who had no problem with cheating on his wife, probably because she was in the same boat as he was. His poetry was actually good to, which comes as a surprise to me because I'm not a big fan of poetry. Next was Calculus, which went all right. Then Physics. Next was French which I'm thinking is going to be a good time. For once the class is huge and the people in it are fun and we're going on a field trip next week. Plus I get to tease Jodi lol! Gotta love that.

So once curling is done Saturday think I'm gonna header to Brandon for some good times with the university crowd. Sunday I supposedly have to work at the rink, which doesn't sound to appealing if Saturday night is decent. Tuesday is the band trip and Thursday is Festival du Voyageur! Oh and I got another conditional acceptance for a university. This time it was good old U of S, which is where I plan on going if the military doesn't take me.

Not bad at all......

I'll start with the dull and get to the paint drying at the end. My Friday was a write off. I got up at around 11:30, watched some television, avoided the cold, watched Benchwarmers, and returned to my warm bed.

Next was Saturday. Now that was a decent day all things considered. Headed up to Rossburn for some curling action. We won our first game in the morning. The boys wanted some Chinese food so we went for some lunch. Came back for the Hot Shots competition, which we didn't win but coach won so the team was sorta connected to that small victory. Then we played our second game in the round robin. For some unknown reason it was a team from Shoal Lake and the reigning Super League Champs. We put up a good fight but were no match. That landed us in the second event. So we were done for the day. Matt and I were travelling home together but realized it was to early to go home. So after a trip to the local establishment, a lot of phone calls, and one voice mail on Chele's phone we came to the conclusion there was nothing to do. So we ended up at Chris' watching Grandma's Boy and Southpark.

Then today came. Boy what a day. We won our first game and moved on to the finals in the second event. In our second game we were down by 4 and things were looking grim in the 5th end. I made a shot I never thought I could make and we came out of that end with 6 points or as I like to think of it 3/4 of our rocks counting. After 3 more ends we finished the game with a final score of 13-5 to give us the victory. Oh and if Huckerby-Smith reads this I'm sorry I didn't have Carlyle home in time to make his scheduled call but we were busy curling and winning Carlyle a pocket watch.

So anyhoo tomorrow my family leaves for Cowtown, and I've got bball and curling. Tuesday is sorta open at the moment, Wednesday is bball in Rossburn, and Friday is curling zones in Rossburn. I can't wait! My excitment level is past any measurable point.

Remember when I was smart?

Damn what a day. Not a good one at all. First off I found out my Pre-Calc mark. Not my usual mark though on the brightside it will still get me into U of S for engineering. Next was the physics exam, which I pretty much messed up sorta like my ELA exam. I got the mark back for that and I nearly had a fit. So yeah I'm starting to wonder what happened to me. I used to be smart. Not rocket scientist smart but things came easy and my marks were high. I don't know what happened. Hopefully I make it through the year on the honor roll, get to where I wanna go, and study stuff I actually want to learn and then maybe I'll regain my lost smartness. Or maybe this is some horrible sign telling me I should become a farmer. Hopefully not, because farming is not what I want to do with my life. Then I had to change the freakin sign without any help, in the cold flippin weather. Not at all fun. Then I found a square board in my locker that was supposed to be sold to raise money for curling. The girls sold one square in the week or so they had it. I sold 99 in the afternoon I had it. Then to top my day off I had to go to cadets, which actually turned out better then I thought. We had a Reg Force Warrant Officer come and talk to us. Told us about being in Rwanda, Alert, and a bunch of other places. Then talked about the area I want to get into in the military.

Oh belated happy birthday to my man Justin Timberlake. Who celebrated a birthday on Wednesday. Oh and congrats JT on the new girlfriend (Scarlett Johannsen. Not as good as mine but hey no one is perfect Justin. Anyways it is Scrubs time. Catch y'all later.

I may have a disease........

Just kidding! I'm fine except for the fact that I cleaned the basement of my own free will today without being told to, because I didn't go to Saskatoon as planned. So the message of this post is to convey how bored I am. When I say clean I mean actually scrubbing the toilet and vacuuming. I know you're all probably thinking that this isn't a big deal but it is. I never clean for something to do. I also shovelled snow for something to do today, which is something I do regularly. Then Dad came home and told me it's supposed to snow tonight!

So yeah tomorrow when I wake up at what ever time I wake up I'll probably start studying for my exam on Thursday. Then I've got some basketball practicing to do, then maybe finish off the night with some more studying. Thursday is my one and only exam. Then might head into Brandon or maybe I'll go to cadets. Who knows....Friday is curling in Rossburn which should be some good times. Saturday is more curling, Sunday is either more curling or maybe I'll head down to Strath for some snowmobiling unless it's really cold (which it's supposed to be). Monday I might go to Saskatoon and Tuesday my family abandons me and heads off to Calgary for nearly a week so I might attempt to bake some cookies or something. Oh and if any of the Lennox ladies read this make sure you wear lots of clothes when you get out of the airport it's supposed to be cold and snowing. HAHA!

***Your Personality Is***


Rational (NT)

You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.


The Three Question Personality Test
http://www.blogthings.com/threequestionpersonalitytest/

Excuse me I have nothing better to do...........

My Personality is Like Acid

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict.One moment you're in your own little happy universe...And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"So, you're a cannibal."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

Am I really Brad Ashcroft?

So yeah yesterday I curled a pretty decent game. Unfortunately I couldn't lead the team to victory but we came as close as we've ever game to it. After the amazing game I headed down to the hall where I was pressed into labour as a kitchen worker. I tell you I'm starting to get good working in the kitchen. Once that was over I hung out at the social for a bit till myself and some other guys headed down the road to Strathclair bar. Pretty decent Friday night it gave me the chance to unwind from the most hectic week I've had in a long time.

So now I'm gonna talk about the title. So yesterday on the intercampus bus for some reason I asked I think it was Jodi I asked what she'd say if I told her that I really wasn't Brad Ashcroft and that I was really someone else. What would you say if someone you knew just came out one day and explained to you that they weren't really who they made out to be? I dunno that would be pretty shocking. I guess the only reason anyone would ever pretend to be someone else would be if they were a spy or in the witness protection program. But man would that be wild....

It's Over!

So it's over. It's done. It's complete. It's finished. It's out of my control. Yeah, that's right I'm done Pre-Calculus 40S forever or so I hope. The exam is over and I'm relieved. Of course I still have a bad feeling about the whole situation but I usually have a bad feeling about a lot of things. Sometimes the feeling is right and other times it's wrong so I'm hoping for the best. So now I'm going to finish up some ELA, and then this semester is pretty much over until the Physics exam. So now I have to find something to do next week when I'm not writing the Physics exam. Maybe do some skidooing, definitely doing some curling, and maybe find some other mischief to get into.

It's on!

2 Days, 18 hours, 16 minutes, and the seconds keep ticking away.

That's how long until I'm free of the shackles of Pre-Calculus math. For better or worse I'll be done forever and technically I'll have graduated from Grade 12. Keyword being technically, because I'm going back next semester to load up on more credits. I just thought I'd announce that to the world. I'm seriously considering starting my weekend the moment the exam is over. Now it's time to get back to the books.

Back on the court

So tonight I made my return to the basketball court after 4 years and damn was I rusty. Still am but hopefully things come back to me. I forgot how much fun basketball is even when all you're doing is blocking kids and getting the odd foul. Gotta get on that stats board somehow.

Yeah, so that's about it. I've decided that someday in my boredom I'm going to write a list of things to do before I die. Ms. Papanies was telling Shane and I about her list and it sounded like a good idea. Philly D said that if you write your goals down you're more likely to accomplish them. Plus I'm always thinking of stuff I'd like to do but I never write it down so I usually forget about it.

Good News

Good news everybody!! After some almost tortorous tests it has been determined that my eye sight is better then 20/20, which qualifies me to be a pilot in the Canadian Forces!!! That's my good news. Though some of those tests make you wish you were blind so you never had to do them again. For example the glucoma test where they blow air at what I call high pressure into your eye or those eye drops for the cyclopegic refraction that dilate your pupils so big you can't tell your eye color. The drops then make your eyes sore then you get a headache. Anyhoo that's my news!

Look what I found!

So I was going through some pictures with my Mom today and look at what I found. It's baby Julie, some other unidentified baby, and......................little Michele Gerrard!

First Day

So I don't really have anything emotional, inspiring, or informative to say, which really isn't going to surprise any of you reading this. Anyways school started again today. Not bad I guess. Not to labour intensive. Actually played my tuba so much I got one of those headaches you get when your brain isn't getting the oxygen it needs. Math was a gooder cuz I got the test I did before the holidays back and it was the best one I've done all year and supposedly my math mark isn't as bad as it was believed and it's gone up. I know this doesn't excite anyone except me but someday one of you might be in Grade 12 Pre-Cal and you'll understand. Oh and my Physics mark has gone up like 5% to! I know not exciting for anyone except me but I'm in the mood to brag.

Anyways tomorrow I start my ELA exam, and the high school curling team makes it's debut as a team. With the exception of the exam tomorrow should be a good day. Basketball this weekend. Should be fun despite my lack of talent on the court.

Oh is anyone else sorta wishing spring comes soon? I really wanna walk around in shorts and sandals in the middle of Brandon Airport out in the sun and gliding. That's just me though.

Git r done!

Thanks to Larry the Cable Guy for the title! Anyways, I'm going to rant a bit. Christmas Holidays are to long if you ask me. 2 weeks is way to long. Now 2 weeks ago I would have said that 2 weeks wasn't long enough. But I'm ready to go back to school. I spend my days sleeping in till 10, watching syndicated tv shows, napping on the couch, reading 1984, and filling out a multitude of applications for a multitude of things. The last two things are the only two productful things I've done lately, and it's a good thing I started doing them. However I'd rather be back in school, even though when I'm in school I'd rather be anywere but there. But at least when I'm at school I have to wake up early, do a fair amount of useful activities, and don't end my days thinking that I've wasted a day. I'd like to go back to school so that I can do my provincial english exam and the math exam. I dread the thought of doing either one of them but I'd like to just get them over with and rid myself a great deal of stress. As well once those two exams are over and done with I'm one step closer to a change in scenery. Don't get me wrong I love this farm, Shoal Lake, and the whole area, but it's time to see the world! Consider this rant concluded.

I'm going to go read 1984 now, which by the way is an extremely strange book. TVs that watch you, no freedom, socialism, and a world where propaganda rules supreme. Oh and what happened to that band Treble Charger? Damn, they were good.

Out with the old and in with.........

So how did I spend my New Years Eve? With Adrienne of course and it was a pretty awesome time. So quick little trivia question. Who did Time Magazine name the person of the year? Me! and everyone else in the world. That's right they named everyone the person of the year, because we control the information age, through such things as this blog and Youtube. So I just thought I'd inform y'all of that.

So now that 2006 is over we can all look back with our 20/20 hindsight and react in any way we want to what occured. 2006 was a good year and probably the most successful of all the years I've gone through, though 2007 will most likely give 2006 a run for it's money. I'm gonna run through 2006, real quickly here and go over the highlights.


January - January was a pretty slow month actually. Though I did take that entrance exam for power to the cleaners.

February - Another slow month, though I had some success with curling and I whooped the review boards.

March - 30 Hr. Famine, cadet trip to Winnipeg, family trip to South Dakota, and some other good times.

April - Gliding season started!

May - I received my passenger rating in the glider and I started flying kids! Band trip to Moose Jaw, got my fancy hairdo, made some girls cry and others hysterical. Probably the closest I'll get to being a rock star. Got promoted to Warrant Officer Second Class, received the Legion Medal of Excellence, became Squadron Commander, etc. Won the Student Council elections and became President. Not bad for the under dog in the election's race. Pretty good month overall.

June - Finished Grade 11 on the honor roll. Safe gradded it up twice. Relay for Life.

July - Left for St. Andrews to begin the largest accomplishment of my life.

August - I was the Flight Commander of the St. Andrews cadets at our Wings Parade, where I obviously received the wings that made me a pilot!

September - Started Grade 12, and back to the gliding field where I chalked up the time like nobody's business.

October - What a month October was. It was quite a weird time romantically we'll say and leave it at that. In the end though it all worked out perfectly and now I have an amazing gf. I also kept chalking up the glider time, and I got a cross-country to Gimli in.

November - Well there was hunting, which didn't go so well but I had fun.

December - Pretty successful month. Was accepted to two universities (U of M and U of W). Started the long process of joining the military, and so far have been pretty successful at that. Staffed a cadet weekend in Winnipeg.

Technology - 0 Brad - 1

I showed that iPod who's boss. So after hours of fiddling around, plugging cords in, then unplugging them, opening things, closing things, and every other action associated with technology I finally put music on the iPod. To top off the hit parade I also put a few pictures on there, just to see if I could. But it is late. Very late in fact and I should go to bed. I was going to write a big blurb about going to the Wheat Kings game but I'll probably just end up passing out on the keyboard. To summarize the whole thing. The Wheaties lost 3-2 after O/T and a shoot out.

I got a toaster

So Santa came! For the first time ever he wrapped the gifts. But anyways.......

I got a toaster. Yes, that's right a toaster. One of those things you place slices of bread in or toaster waffles (mmmmmmmmmm toaster waffles) and they come out toasted. I must say probably the weirdest gift I've ever received. Not sure what I'm going to do with it, well besides the obvious. I did get that snowmobile suit I asked for, and some sweet CDs (+44 and Foo Fighters), got some towels (with a note saying to save them for university), a second watch, and the usual books, food, socks, etc. Oh and I did get an airplane. Though it was only a toy.

Tomorrow or should I say later today is the skating party at Adri's. Going to be pretty sweet except I have to take Julie, so that she's kept busy. Hmmmm yeah that's about it.

Santa Is Coming!!!

Santa is Coming!!!!!

So anyhoo Santa is coming tomorrow! I just spent the last half an hour trying to make that NORAD Santa Tracker website work but my computer is retarded. Adrienne gave me a sweet watch for Christmas. It has this thing on it call a tachymeter. I had no clue what it was for so I wikipedied it and it's a speedometer type deal. It's pretty amazing. So yeah that's about all the exciting news I have. I did spend the first half of today in bed. First time in months I've slept in till noon. I can't even remember the last time I did that.

Tomorrow is the family deal at Grandma's and then I guess it moves on over to my aunt and uncle's for supper. Boxing Day is skating at Adrienne's! Anywayssssss